So, I recently decided to go back to school. It all happened so quickly to be honest. I had decided this so late last year, well after any financial aid deadlines. So, I really didn’t think that a spring semester start was possible. But thankfully everything worked out and here I am enrolled in 2 college courses that are already kicking my butt and it’s only week 2 LOL!
Honey, let me tell you. It really is a big adjustment for me. I’m just trying to figure out how to balance being a mom, wife, take care of my household, work part time , trying to grow my personal brand, and now going to school! Then there’s the emotional/spiritual aspects of my life that need to be nurtured.
My goal is simple. I just want to get closer to God and grow spiritually. Because let’s be honest, sometimes we get so carried away with daily life that we put off talking to God, especially when things are going good in our lives. Sad to say but it happens. There’s no need to beat yourself up over it. We are all human and no one is perfect. We just have to acknowledge it and commit to doing better.But it’s something I acknowledge and continue to work on.
With that said I was reading some verses online and one really spoke out to me in particular.
I’ve been going through some things lately. A lot of it is personal, and has to deal with where I am in life and the direction I am headed. Sometimes I just get so much anxiety thinking of all the things I have to do and all the things I still have yet to do. Today was really the icing on the cake so this scripture couldn’t have come at a better time.
There’s not one particular version I stick to. If I’m looking up a verse I’ll read it in different versions (KJV, ASV, NIV, etc.) until I understand the wording. I struggle sometimes with interpreting the message because of the language used.
The verse is 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 and it reads:
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Do you ever feel like you’re just wandering around aimlessly? I know, speaking for myself, sometimes I feel so lost as to what I should be doing with my life and my business. Should I continue trying to grow my Avon business, even though it’s slowly progressing? Or should I focus my efforts more on building my personal styling and business coaching business? Am I doing everything I can do to be the best, nurturing mother to Addy? Am I fulfilling all my other obligations? It kind of makes you feel helpless, like you’re losing control.
The above verse gives me hope though. I know that whenever I feel weak I’m actually strong because I have to rely on God more. I have to have faith that He knows the plan and direction my life is headed. To rely on God is to give it up to Him and know that he is going to handle each situation in your life accordingly. So, the best thing you can do is just pray and continue to work diligently towards your goals because you are exactly where God wants you to be at this very moment. You might as well just enjoy the journey because it’s all apart of His divine plan.
“Stop trying to skip the struggle. That’s where character is built.”